?

I'm tired.

I'm tired with life

that doesn't come with instruction.

Fuck and screw things that happened.

I'm so mixed up with what I should be doing right now.

I screwed up my own life.

Until I don't even know when I should smile, 

cry, regret and getting angry.

Should I be happy that

I am still here standing all this while in this circumstances

encounter all these nasty stuff not becoming crazily insane

or

should I be worrying that

I shouldn't be in this state,

it's better for me to just make myself mentality distorted by 

attempting dangerous action 

eg.

suicide.

And

does the above choice really matter 

to what I suppose to be doing right now?

Look,

I just screwed myself again.

FML

dreamie land ....